How surprising! I thought the tripod cgis are all down but the diary is still working! *I'm so moved* All right, that means my "what's new" can be put up! Oh great... I'm meeting Jen this evening, hope everything will be fine...the dream I had last night had left my heart pounding in horror...if your mom could *see* what you're doing wherever she is, that would be the most horrible thing in the world! Luckily it's just a dream (phew!)~hope we can have a good time together - after all we haven't met each other for 6 long years!
DPS 2002年 8月17日(sat)
I know I'm crazy, but I can't stop myself from this kind of obsession. It is true, that I am in constant need of finding something to distract myself from the boring, mundane world, but I'm not really prepared for what is happening to me now. Well, it's not that I'm against slash stories, in fact I find all those (or almost all of those) DPS slash stories so sweet and so beautiful! But - I hate "buts" - but I think I'm too obsessed with this kind of things. It's not really very healthy, is it? It IS a pleasure, I would say, but concerning that DPS is one of my favourite movies, and that it did inspire me and support me so much when I was in need...I am unsure of whether I am ruining my feelings towards to movie itself. I mean, if, in the future, whenever I watch the movie again, what I can think of is only those slash pairing, it would be rather awful. No, it can't be like that. I have to keep calm and retain a sober view. I can't let my favourite movie be only a slash stimulator. It'll be stupid, and an enormous waste considering how wonderful the movie itself is. I don't know if I can overcome this, but I'll try. Very hard.